Wednesday, August 28, 2013
Blogging and boundaries is a topic never ceases to fascinate me. On the one hand, it would be very easy to pour my soul into this blog. Letters to the world. I love writing letters and sharing secrets and telling stories. On the other hand, privacy WHAT. As I was growing up I hoarded privacy and put significant energy into controlling who knew what. Slowly I have opened up, thanks to five years in an liberal college environment, yet I still tend to become hostile when I learn unintended people have learned something I meant for private ears only. And my wee blog on teh internets? Why, it is open to EVERYBODY. How bloody terrifying is that? VERY. Mean, judgmental people are out there!! Instead of hyperventilating, I try to look at the flipside: How friggen awesome is that? VERY. Friends and besties and social connections ahoy!
The ironic thing is the blogs I love the best are the ones that bear all. Joys, fears, pain, challenges, laughter, advice. As a reader there is nothing I like more than feeling I am a best friend the author is imparting secrets to. I devour archives and life stories. I swear I'm not a stalker, but I do sometimes feel like a creeper who should occasionally send out an email saying "HI THERE. I read all your secrets. In exchange, a list of my secrets is attached. Kthxbai."
So here I am, trying to strike a balance. Trying to be respectful of my friends and family and employers that might not want their stories shared while being true to my own. Trying to follow my intuition and write soulful posts I would really like as a reader, even when they take courage and personal pep talks to post. Trying not to be a perfectionist and edit my archives to erase or update my story. Trying not to make this blog into something it's not or somebody else's vision.
So here's to future blog posts and the archives of the past: may I be a writer who is brave and coherent enough to tell a story that contributes to the blogging world and seeks to repay the joy I have reaped for so many years.
Wednesday, August 21, 2013
1. With the magic of one cross-country flight I get to spend the next few days with some of my favorite people. HOORAY!!
2. I made it to the airport with no snafus! (I am always paranoid about this.) Hooray!
3. I get to see a new region of the country. Adventures ahoy!
4. See number 1. And they're totally getting married too. Hooray!!
5. *Censored secret things* Hooray!!
6. I am totally shoe twins with the lady sitting across from me.
Sunday, August 18, 2013
1) It was expensive! Fortunately my health insurance covered it. HOORAY!!
2) I could not get it that appointment. I had to come back after they ran their required tests and checked with my insurance.
3) Also, the implantation appointment had to be schedule when I was on my period. Since I have not given birth, that was the time my cervix would be the most willing to have something shoved through it. (Yeah, I know. It's not rainbows and unicorns.) My doctor also performed a pelvic exam to gauge whether or not I could sit still through the IUD implantation process and to see if my uterus, which has not been stretched out by pregnancy, was actually big enough to accommodate the IUD.
How was the pain?
How was the implantation procedure?
How was the emotional side of things?
Can you feel it?
How's the sex?
Have you noticed any change in periods?
tl;dr Logistics summary, please?
- 3 doctor's appointments (initial, implantation, follow up) over 2 months
- $1000ish that insurance covered
- 1/2 day vacation (I totally had the best ice cream date with myself afterwards)
- 1 week of tenderness
- 3 months of heavy periods
- 10 years of birth control! w00t w00t!
Help, I'm still nervous!
Thursday, August 15, 2013
Saturday, August 10, 2013
Hooray for Houseguests!
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